Maintaining Wellbeing at University…

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Bonjour!

So taking care of your mental health may not be on the top of your list of priorities at university. However, having recently graduated, looking back, I wish I had known when I started uni that my own mental health should have come before anything else.

At the start of my final year at university, I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder, having frequent panic attacks which affected every aspect of my life. I found that I was missing lectures regularly due to the fact that I just didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning. Throughout university I always felt as if I wasn’t good enough and that I was the worst performing on my course, actually I always felt this way at school too. But skipping lectures made me panic even more about this in the long-term. I won’t try and tell current students how to be mindful and offer advice on how to be the least-stressed and happiest student that ever lived, because I was never that. However, I will tell you what worked for me and how I managed to get from duvet-cocooning on Monday’s to my graduation day.

  1. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Your academic ability can only stretch so far, just like your physical and your mental abilities. If you feel like your workload is getting too much and you’re on the verge, then stop. Take a moment to focus on what is important and what you need to do to make it right. If you don’t understand a topic, work through it slowly, get help or just leave it! It’s not the end of the world.
  2. If you feel like you need to take time off to unwind, do it. Preferably do this when you haven’t got lectures to attend, but studying and writing 24/7 is not the way to properly take care of your mental health. You need time to reflect and relax, and don’t feel guilty about it!
  3. It was important to me to have another aspect of my life that wasn’t uni. I worked full time as a secondary school teaching assistant whilst at university. At times it definitely want easy but it gave me an escape and another reason to get up in the morning. When I was at work (I love my job so that helps) I was able to forget about the mountains of coursework I had to complete at home and focus on a whole other side to myself.
  4. Sleep! Sleep is one of the most important thing you can get when at university. Set up a sleep schedule, for example, going to bed at 11pm and waking up at 7am. NOT grabbing two hours at 3am!
  5. Organisation is SO important. I discovered in my first year that a wall planner is a life saver! Write down all of your presentation dates, when things are due and lectures. Having a diary or planner (and things written in it) to refer to means that you’ll never miss any imporatant dates and nothing will come as a shock. Also, on the topic of organisation, packing your bag he might before is, granted, a bit secondary school, but you’ll be glad of the extra ten minutes in bed in the morning. And you won’t be rushing out the house, shoving who-knows what in your rucksack.

Really, to me, the most important thing to make sure you’re doing whilst at uni is to take care of your mental health. If you can do that properly, then everything else can fall into place. Taking time out and being aware of how you’re feeling is super important. I think awareness is key to keeping happy and healthy. Actually stopping, reflecting and asking yourself ‘how do I feel today? What is my frame of mind?’ And then being aware of days when you’re feeling particularly delicate or on-edge and addressing it.

There’s nothing to be ashamed of with regards to feeling low or stressed out or just plain frazzled. The stigma that comes with mental health is disappearing and speaking out and making, not only yourself, but people who care about you aware of your mind-set will only help to put you on the right path. Hopefully these simple little tips will help to maintain or improve wellbeing during arguably the hardest, but best, years of your life.

Emily

Xoxo

Graduation And How I Got There!

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When I was in school, I was always the ‘middle of the road’ student. I wasn’t particularly clever or not, but looking back, I doubted myself so much. Actually, I was in top sets for most of my classes, I wasn’t getting A*’s but I was getting B’s. My problem was, my friends were all so clever and they were getting the top grades. I found myself clinging onto them and relying on them to tell me when our next test was, the answers to the homework and how to plan an essay. This only got me so far and by sixth form they’d become pretty fed up of me. My grades were falling from B’s to D’s in A Level and I gave up completely on the idea of university while my friends were still maintaining their straight A’s. My tutor and some of my friends were telling me to apply for uni, but I was just so convinced I wasn’t good enough. Okay, I thought, I might be able to get in, but I would no way be able to pass any of the work. 

Looking back, I wish I could tell myself how much better I was than I thought. I really underestimated myself and there is no way I ever imagined I would be standing up on stage one day being handed a university diploma with an upper second class honours degree in Creative Writing with English Literature.

Although I continued with my old habits in the first year; relying on friends to get me through. It wasn’t until I passed first year with a similar grade to my friends that I realised I could do it myself. Okay, so maybe I only just scraped a 2:1, but so what? who cares? The fact is I did it and 15 year old GCSE-fretting me cannot believe it.

The graduation ceremony was amazing. My parents cried, my grandparents came too, and my sister, and I was the first Hull to ever go to university and get a degree. I am so proud of what I’ve achieved in my time at university, as well as my friend too. I have made the best, life-long friends at uni who I know will always be there for me. If you can go through that together, you can definitely get through anything together, is what I say!

University was no easy feat for me. I had to work full time as a Teaching Assistant in order to fund my study, as well as attend lectures and undertake the course full time. Balancing a potential career and high level education took its toll and in early 2017 I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and panic attacks. My anxiety has really changed who I am as a person. Whilst I used to be travelling all over the country to see bands and camp out to meet them and go on day trips to London, I don’t do any of that anymore. Panic attacks have stopped me from doing the things I absolutely love and once considered a hobby. Whereas now I feel that all I do is go to work, sleep and repeat, I hope that one day I will be able to overcome this anxiety in the same way I overcame my self-doubt about university.

So really, what I’m saying is, if you ever feel like you can’t do something, just give it a try. And then, when you manage to do it you’ll look back on yourself and regret doubting yourself so much…

I hope you’ve enjoyed this post as much as I’ve enjoyed writing it.

Emily

xoxo

p.s. I’ll leave you with some pics from my grad!

Blogtember Day #30- Work Primark Haul!!

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Bonjour! 

For the last day of September, I went shopping to get some more clothes for work (I barely have any)! Sorry if it’s not very exciting but some bits are lovely and autumn-y so stay tuned! 

Okay, so this first item is not for work (great start, Em) but I just had to get it. It’s a really cosy and soft jumper with Beauty and the Beast embroidered characters. £15, so not the cheapest thing Primark has ever sold, but cute and kinda worth it. 

Next is a very un-exciting black pencil skirt. It’s kind of a t-shirt material so it’s stretchy, which makes it a lot easier to move about in, hopefully! This one was £5 and goes with everything, right?

Staying with the bottom half, I picked up a pair of navy blue cropped smart/work trousers. They’re a lovely fit and look smart for work, so you can’t really go wrong. And thy have pockets- hurrah!!

I was, at first, disgusted with the very notion of roll-neck jumpers in Primark. I actually picked this one up by accident and threw it back down in disgrace. However, I thought about it for a bit and thought how lovely it would look with a scarf and a pair of loose fitting trousers, like the ones above, for work. So I went for it. I’ve yet to try it out in the work environment and get a teenager’s verdict, but I like it. 


I absolutely love this shirt, but again, I don’t know how it’ll work in practice just yet. It’s such a lovely baby pink shade with a breast pocket and pearls sewn onto the collar. Simple and so cute. And only £5!


Can you ever have too many scarfs for work in the winter? I literally live in them. This one is soooo cute. It’s a navy blue with gold stars all over it. I am in love with it. And it looks so expensive! £4. 

Okay, so these next two aren’t from Primark, but I thought I’d share them with you anyway. They’re the same style (I actually already have a beige one), one is yellow and one is bright orange. 

They’re from H&M and only £8.99, but they’re such a lovely fit. I wore one to work yesterday and got so many compliments! And the colours are so so so lovely for autumn! I’m kind of happy Halloween is on a work day, so I can wear the orange one then! 🙂 
Hope you enjoyed this post, and all of my posts throughout Blogtember! I’m sad to be seeing Blogtember coming to an end, but it’s just got me more excited about Blogmas!!! Obviously I’ll be posting before then, so stay tuned and in touch! Thank you for all your support, reads, likes and comments throughout the month- love you lots!

Emily

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #27- The Dentist!!

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Bonjour!

Sorry for this short blog post today. I have been to the dentist and am currently dying (slight exaggeration). Okay, so on Boxing Day, yes, that long ago, I managed to fracture my tooth on a potato wedge. And since then I’ve visited the dentist five times!! They haven’t managed to fix it and now I’m going through the process of having a crown fitted! Fingers crossed this’ll work and I’ll be able to eat nice crunchy things again on both sides of my mouth…. the dream!

Anyway, my mouth and face is currently numb and swollen and I look like a dribbling mess. The anaesthetic I’ve been given is so strong I just want to sleep…. so that’s what I’m going to do. 

Good night! 

Emily

Xoxo

P.s. Here’s a pic of me from yesterday when my face was of normal proportions. 

Blogtember Day #26- 10 Things That Make Me Happy!

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Bonjour!

I’m a big believer in reminding yourself of the good things in your life. So I’m going to share the ten things that make me super happy. I’d love to hear your’s too!
1) Early nights and cosy TV shows. 

I’m a very tired person. Generally. I am usually in bed by 9pm and falling asleep with the TV on after ten minutes. I love to put a familiar show on to fall asleep to. These currently include Outnumbered, Miranda, Gavin & Stacey and Horrible Histories! Ha!
2) My cat.

I love my little baby. She’s called Roxy and she’s 12 years old. We’ve had her since I was 12 so she’s a huge part of my life. I couldn’t be without her.
3) My job.

As much as I loooove to moan about work, I actually love my job. Working with children and young people means that life is never dull and every day is different. That’s for sure.
4) My wonderful friends. 


I take my friends for granted a lot and I’m awful at that. But lately I’ve been having some tough times and I’ve realised how much I bloody love my friends. Especially my bestie Katie and the wonderful Bethany (http://dreamsoflustre.wordpress.com/).
5) Make up.

It sounds super shallow, right? Thing is, I’m not actually a huuuuge make up wearer, but I enjoy experimenting and watching tutorials of how to get different looks. It’s just a bit of fun!
6) House plants. 


If your house plants don’t have names, do you even own house plants?
7) Books!!


I am one of those people who read their favourite book so many times that it’s falling apart. My taste in books so so diverse, you wouldn’t even believe me. My two faves are To Kill A Mockingbird and The Wind in the Willows. I also love teen fiction (Looking For Alaska is fave), and I’m also a member of the folio society for Samuel Pepyes’ diaries. See, told you you wouldn’t believe me. Also love a good non-fiction Brian Cox number, a screen play, or even a Shakespeare play. I mean, give me your car instruction manual and I’ll read it.
8) Christmas!!

So I always say that after my birthday, Christmas begins! And, as you know, my birthday was three days ago so Christmas is now in full swing.
9) Music. 


Music makes everything better, right? Again, diverse taste. Let’s just say from Joy Division to One Direction and leave it at that, shall we?
10) Bullet Journalling. 


As you may have seen from my previous bu-jo post, I’m a journaller and thrive in all things stationary and washi tape.

Hope you liked reading about the things that make me happy. I’d love to hear your’s- comment below 🙂

Emily

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #24- What Did I Get For My Birthday?

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Bonjour!

I’ve literally had the most wonderful weekend celebrating my 23rd birthday. I thought it’d be nice to share with you some of the gifts I recieved from friends and family, and also things I treated myself to. (Y’know, it’s my birthday- treat yo self!)

1) Too Faced Sweet Peach palette! 


I’m so happy I’ve finally got my hands on this. My grandparents got this for me, and I believe it came from Debenhams. It’s so exciting that they’re stocking this in the UK in Debs. If you haven’t grabbed yourself one yet, quick!!!! I’m definitely going to do a post containing my fave looks from the palette. However, I’m really stumped for look ideas, so if anyone knows of any blogs or vlogs using this palette for tutorials, please share!


 2) Morphe Fall into The Frost 35F palette

Again, such a beaut, and I’m so excited to try it out! But again, have no idea which colours to combine for certain looks so please share ideas!! This gift came from my parents. It was £23 from Cult Beauty… 🙂
3) Too Faced Face Palette


I haven’t actually recieved this one yet, but my mum gave me some money to buy it. I’m heading into debenhams tomorrow to pick it up. I’m so excited to try this out as I’m soooooo fed up with using my old highlighter and contour palette that doesn’t match my skin tone!!!!! Not long now! 😩
4) H&M jacket


So my parents gave me money to spend in town so I got this jacket ready for autumn/winter. I absolutely love this jacket. It’s suede and fluffy and heavy but super cute and fits so well. Perfect snuggly winter jacket!
5) The Killers new album on vinyl


Annnnd pink vinyl at that!! My best friend gave me a Love to Shop voucher, which can be redeemed in HMV… so, obviously, I just had to treat myself to my favourite band’s new album in pink. 


6) Boots


These little ankle boots are from Primark and only cost £10, but how beaut???? They remind me of a Harry Styles suit….
7) My sister and her fiancé bought me a Waterstone’s voucher (which I’m going to spend on the new John Green book when it comes out). They also bought me a Mrs Potts money box… you know, those pesky ones no one could ever find. So glad I finally have one!

8) Friends’ gifts


I’ve also recieved some wonderful gifts from my amazing friends. These range from mugs, journals, shark necklaces (YES I KNOW), Stephen Hawkin socks (YUP), scarfs, more jewellery, wine and chocolate (wooo!)

I have the best friends and family and I’m so lucky to have had such a wonderful birthday. I hope you realise I’m not trying to show off with what I got, but I thought it’d just be nice to share…

Hope you enjoyed!

Emily 

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #19- Anxiety Update. 

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Bonjour!

So, you may or may not already know this about me but, I suffer from anxiety disorder and panic attacks. Being diagnosed with anxiety is quite a recent thing for me, as I only really realised it and started to have more severe attacks in May of this year. So this blog is basically me coming to terms with the changes and noticing the triggers that spark off my anxiety and irrational and low feelings/thoughts. 

I work in a secondary school as a Teaching Assistant and, although I love it most of the time, I’m having a really tough time lately. After having the summer holidays off, in which I had zero panick attacks and barely any anxiety, I have returned to work feeling the most anxiety I’ve ever felt. 

So on Saturday evening, I had the biggest and worst panic attack ever. I was crying and shaking and, in all honesty, haven’t been the same since. I’ve been really quiet and just unable to find joy in anything I do. I also managed to have a bit of a melt down at work on Monday, luckily not in front of anyone. My mum knows and is really helpful, but she’s now starting to really worry about me. Mum phoned the doctors yesterday to get me an appointment. She thinks I need something other than propranolol, as now I’m beginning to feel very down and depressed. (Does propranolol work for anyone else? It does nothing for me…)

I know ‘depressed’ is a throw-away term that probably most of us use. But depression is a serious mental condition and is, unfortunately, linked to anxiety. I will see what the doctor says but I really hope I’m not heading down that road. 

Anyway, Mr Anxiety is back and here to stay, it would seem. Which sucks because it’s my birthday on Saturday and he is not invited to the party 😦 😦 😦 

On the bright side, this low patch has made me realise what wonderful people I have around me, who genuinely care about how I’m feeling and love me. 

Really hope your week is going a lot better than mine!

Feel free to discuss anything you feel you need to in the comments….

Emily

Xoxo