Graduation And How I Got There!

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When I was in school, I was always the ‘middle of the road’ student. I wasn’t particularly clever or not, but looking back, I doubted myself so much. Actually, I was in top sets for most of my classes, I wasn’t getting A*’s but I was getting B’s. My problem was, my friends were all so clever and they were getting the top grades. I found myself clinging onto them and relying on them to tell me when our next test was, the answers to the homework and how to plan an essay. This only got me so far and by sixth form they’d become pretty fed up of me. My grades were falling from B’s to D’s in A Level and I gave up completely on the idea of university while my friends were still maintaining their straight A’s. My tutor and some of my friends were telling me to apply for uni, but I was just so convinced I wasn’t good enough. Okay, I thought, I might be able to get in, but I would no way be able to pass any of the work. 

Looking back, I wish I could tell myself how much better I was than I thought. I really underestimated myself and there is no way I ever imagined I would be standing up on stage one day being handed a university diploma with an upper second class honours degree in Creative Writing with English Literature.

Although I continued with my old habits in the first year; relying on friends to get me through. It wasn’t until I passed first year with a similar grade to my friends that I realised I could do it myself. Okay, so maybe I only just scraped a 2:1, but so what? who cares? The fact is I did it and 15 year old GCSE-fretting me cannot believe it.

The graduation ceremony was amazing. My parents cried, my grandparents came too, and my sister, and I was the first Hull to ever go to university and get a degree. I am so proud of what I’ve achieved in my time at university, as well as my friend too. I have made the best, life-long friends at uni who I know will always be there for me. If you can go through that together, you can definitely get through anything together, is what I say!

University was no easy feat for me. I had to work full time as a Teaching Assistant in order to fund my study, as well as attend lectures and undertake the course full time. Balancing a potential career and high level education took its toll and in early 2017 I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and panic attacks. My anxiety has really changed who I am as a person. Whilst I used to be travelling all over the country to see bands and camp out to meet them and go on day trips to London, I don’t do any of that anymore. Panic attacks have stopped me from doing the things I absolutely love and once considered a hobby. Whereas now I feel that all I do is go to work, sleep and repeat, I hope that one day I will be able to overcome this anxiety in the same way I overcame my self-doubt about university.

So really, what I’m saying is, if you ever feel like you can’t do something, just give it a try. And then, when you manage to do it you’ll look back on yourself and regret doubting yourself so much…

I hope you’ve enjoyed this post as much as I’ve enjoyed writing it.

Emily

xoxo

p.s. I’ll leave you with some pics from my grad!

Blogtember Day #30- Work Primark Haul!!

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Bonjour! 

For the last day of September, I went shopping to get some more clothes for work (I barely have any)! Sorry if it’s not very exciting but some bits are lovely and autumn-y so stay tuned! 

Okay, so this first item is not for work (great start, Em) but I just had to get it. It’s a really cosy and soft jumper with Beauty and the Beast embroidered characters. £15, so not the cheapest thing Primark has ever sold, but cute and kinda worth it. 

Next is a very un-exciting black pencil skirt. It’s kind of a t-shirt material so it’s stretchy, which makes it a lot easier to move about in, hopefully! This one was £5 and goes with everything, right?

Staying with the bottom half, I picked up a pair of navy blue cropped smart/work trousers. They’re a lovely fit and look smart for work, so you can’t really go wrong. And thy have pockets- hurrah!!

I was, at first, disgusted with the very notion of roll-neck jumpers in Primark. I actually picked this one up by accident and threw it back down in disgrace. However, I thought about it for a bit and thought how lovely it would look with a scarf and a pair of loose fitting trousers, like the ones above, for work. So I went for it. I’ve yet to try it out in the work environment and get a teenager’s verdict, but I like it. 


I absolutely love this shirt, but again, I don’t know how it’ll work in practice just yet. It’s such a lovely baby pink shade with a breast pocket and pearls sewn onto the collar. Simple and so cute. And only £5!


Can you ever have too many scarfs for work in the winter? I literally live in them. This one is soooo cute. It’s a navy blue with gold stars all over it. I am in love with it. And it looks so expensive! £4. 

Okay, so these next two aren’t from Primark, but I thought I’d share them with you anyway. They’re the same style (I actually already have a beige one), one is yellow and one is bright orange. 

They’re from H&M and only £8.99, but they’re such a lovely fit. I wore one to work yesterday and got so many compliments! And the colours are so so so lovely for autumn! I’m kind of happy Halloween is on a work day, so I can wear the orange one then! 🙂 
Hope you enjoyed this post, and all of my posts throughout Blogtember! I’m sad to be seeing Blogtember coming to an end, but it’s just got me more excited about Blogmas!!! Obviously I’ll be posting before then, so stay tuned and in touch! Thank you for all your support, reads, likes and comments throughout the month- love you lots!

Emily

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #28- My Fave Jumper and Jacket!

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Bonjour!

I was originally going to do a post about my favourite jumper. But I put this jacket over it and I am going to have to include this beautiful jacket too. Let’s start with this jumper. 


I absolutely love this really thin cardigan-feeling jumper as it’s perfect for the spring and autumn in-between weather, but can also be layered with, for example, a long sleeved top underneath, for those colder days. It’s a lemon yellow sweater-jumper thang with ‘Sisterhood’ written on the front. I fist saw this jumper in a magazine and the feature was of loads of celebrities wearing the same one. I loved it even more when I saw where it was from and the price of it! Only £19.99 and from New Look! I love to wear it with jeans and just simple converse, and I nearly always roll the sleeves up. I just think it makes it look better and less formal. Love. 


Okay, the jacket is to die for too. I’ve seen really similar ones to this in Zara and H&M at £80 a go. This one was from Primark and was only £25! It’s black suede with faux fur lining and cuffs, with silver zips and a belt. I absolutely love it. So cosy and warm and also stylish as it’s versatile and perfect for the winter. I feel like I’m going to be absolutely living in it through this winter (and I’m excited about it). If you get the chance, pick one up, and for this price it’s literally a no-brainer. 


Hope you like!

Emily

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #27- The Dentist!!

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Bonjour!

Sorry for this short blog post today. I have been to the dentist and am currently dying (slight exaggeration). Okay, so on Boxing Day, yes, that long ago, I managed to fracture my tooth on a potato wedge. And since then I’ve visited the dentist five times!! They haven’t managed to fix it and now I’m going through the process of having a crown fitted! Fingers crossed this’ll work and I’ll be able to eat nice crunchy things again on both sides of my mouth…. the dream!

Anyway, my mouth and face is currently numb and swollen and I look like a dribbling mess. The anaesthetic I’ve been given is so strong I just want to sleep…. so that’s what I’m going to do. 

Good night! 

Emily

Xoxo

P.s. Here’s a pic of me from yesterday when my face was of normal proportions. 

Blogtember Day #26- 10 Things That Make Me Happy!

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Bonjour!

I’m a big believer in reminding yourself of the good things in your life. So I’m going to share the ten things that make me super happy. I’d love to hear your’s too!
1) Early nights and cosy TV shows. 

I’m a very tired person. Generally. I am usually in bed by 9pm and falling asleep with the TV on after ten minutes. I love to put a familiar show on to fall asleep to. These currently include Outnumbered, Miranda, Gavin & Stacey and Horrible Histories! Ha!
2) My cat.

I love my little baby. She’s called Roxy and she’s 12 years old. We’ve had her since I was 12 so she’s a huge part of my life. I couldn’t be without her.
3) My job.

As much as I loooove to moan about work, I actually love my job. Working with children and young people means that life is never dull and every day is different. That’s for sure.
4) My wonderful friends. 


I take my friends for granted a lot and I’m awful at that. But lately I’ve been having some tough times and I’ve realised how much I bloody love my friends. Especially my bestie Katie and the wonderful Bethany (http://dreamsoflustre.wordpress.com/).
5) Make up.

It sounds super shallow, right? Thing is, I’m not actually a huuuuge make up wearer, but I enjoy experimenting and watching tutorials of how to get different looks. It’s just a bit of fun!
6) House plants. 


If your house plants don’t have names, do you even own house plants?
7) Books!!


I am one of those people who read their favourite book so many times that it’s falling apart. My taste in books so so diverse, you wouldn’t even believe me. My two faves are To Kill A Mockingbird and The Wind in the Willows. I also love teen fiction (Looking For Alaska is fave), and I’m also a member of the folio society for Samuel Pepyes’ diaries. See, told you you wouldn’t believe me. Also love a good non-fiction Brian Cox number, a screen play, or even a Shakespeare play. I mean, give me your car instruction manual and I’ll read it.
8) Christmas!!

So I always say that after my birthday, Christmas begins! And, as you know, my birthday was three days ago so Christmas is now in full swing.
9) Music. 


Music makes everything better, right? Again, diverse taste. Let’s just say from Joy Division to One Direction and leave it at that, shall we?
10) Bullet Journalling. 


As you may have seen from my previous bu-jo post, I’m a journaller and thrive in all things stationary and washi tape.

Hope you liked reading about the things that make me happy. I’d love to hear your’s- comment below 🙂

Emily

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #24- What Did I Get For My Birthday?

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Bonjour!

I’ve literally had the most wonderful weekend celebrating my 23rd birthday. I thought it’d be nice to share with you some of the gifts I recieved from friends and family, and also things I treated myself to. (Y’know, it’s my birthday- treat yo self!)

1) Too Faced Sweet Peach palette! 


I’m so happy I’ve finally got my hands on this. My grandparents got this for me, and I believe it came from Debenhams. It’s so exciting that they’re stocking this in the UK in Debs. If you haven’t grabbed yourself one yet, quick!!!! I’m definitely going to do a post containing my fave looks from the palette. However, I’m really stumped for look ideas, so if anyone knows of any blogs or vlogs using this palette for tutorials, please share!


 2) Morphe Fall into The Frost 35F palette

Again, such a beaut, and I’m so excited to try it out! But again, have no idea which colours to combine for certain looks so please share ideas!! This gift came from my parents. It was £23 from Cult Beauty… 🙂
3) Too Faced Face Palette


I haven’t actually recieved this one yet, but my mum gave me some money to buy it. I’m heading into debenhams tomorrow to pick it up. I’m so excited to try this out as I’m soooooo fed up with using my old highlighter and contour palette that doesn’t match my skin tone!!!!! Not long now! 😩
4) H&M jacket


So my parents gave me money to spend in town so I got this jacket ready for autumn/winter. I absolutely love this jacket. It’s suede and fluffy and heavy but super cute and fits so well. Perfect snuggly winter jacket!
5) The Killers new album on vinyl


Annnnd pink vinyl at that!! My best friend gave me a Love to Shop voucher, which can be redeemed in HMV… so, obviously, I just had to treat myself to my favourite band’s new album in pink. 


6) Boots


These little ankle boots are from Primark and only cost £10, but how beaut???? They remind me of a Harry Styles suit….
7) My sister and her fiancé bought me a Waterstone’s voucher (which I’m going to spend on the new John Green book when it comes out). They also bought me a Mrs Potts money box… you know, those pesky ones no one could ever find. So glad I finally have one!

8) Friends’ gifts


I’ve also recieved some wonderful gifts from my amazing friends. These range from mugs, journals, shark necklaces (YES I KNOW), Stephen Hawkin socks (YUP), scarfs, more jewellery, wine and chocolate (wooo!)

I have the best friends and family and I’m so lucky to have had such a wonderful birthday. I hope you realise I’m not trying to show off with what I got, but I thought it’d just be nice to share…

Hope you enjoyed!

Emily 

Xoxo

Blogtember Day #20- A-Z of Beauty Tips!

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Bonjour!

Here’s your alphabet in beauty form….

A is for Aroma– Smelling Good is super important. Whether it’s a perfume or a body mist, its a must. 

B is for Beauty Blender– How else do people blend their foundation? Like, a brush, really?



C is for Concealer– I would die without concealer. I would literally be dead. The bags under my eyes are enough. 

D is for DON’T BE AFRAID– Yellow trousers? Go for it. Massive tassel earrings? Why not?!



E is for Eyes– Whether it’s eye shadow or the ever-tricky cat-eye flick, no one can live with a naked eye. The most important part of the face in my opinion. (E is also for eyebrows, which are just as important and the darker the better tbh…)

F is for Faves– Just because a product isn’t top of the range, doesn’t mean it can’t be your fave for regular use. We all have our little go-tos and it doesn’t matter if they’re falling apart or disgustingly dirty, right? They’re our faves. 

G is for Glitter– Obvs! Whether it’s on the eyes, the lips, shimmer highlights, anything!! I love glittery nails, personally. 

H is for Highlight– You know how much I love a highlight. Can you ever have too much on? I think not. 



I is for Illusion– We’re on a theme here. Contour is the best illusion since magicians began cutting people in half. 

J is for Jackets– With winter approaching, a jacket is an essential and one of my fave items of clothing. I’m so excited to get mine back! Look at this beaut from Zara…



K is for Killer Boots– On the theme of winter, boots are a must and I literally live in them all winter long. Ankle boots, fluffy long boots, any kind of boot!!

L is for Lips– I’m obsessed with lip crayons at the moment and matte lips. 

M is for Matte- matte powder has been a life-save through the sweaty summer, but matte nails and lips are a must for autumn/winter. 



N is for Nails– £20 a fortnight for shellac nails? Oh okay then….

O is for Online– I’ve recently found so many beauty bargains online. Examples are a £52 Too Faced palette on eBay for £15 and the discovery of Cult Beauty has saved me a small fortune (Morphe 30 colour palette for £23!)

P is for Primer– If you’re like me, you’re very lazy with primer, but I have to admit, I’ve been using it a lot more lately and it really does mean my make up lasts longer throughout the day. If you’ve never tried it, give it a so and compare. 



Q is for Quick Fixes- Again, if you’re anything like me, you’ll need to take make-up to work (after crying a lot). However, taking you’re entire make-up kit is a bit extreme. I normally take just concealer and a sponge to cover the patches and any spots that may appear throughout the day. 

R is for Repairing Shampoos– I literally live by these. My hair would probably have all fallen out by now, or look like a crow’s nest. 



S is for Sleep– A good night’s sleep is the most important beauty tip I can give. Beauty sleep is no myth, people. 

T is for Time Out– Sometimes it’s important to let your face and skin rest. Give yourself a day or two off per week or fortnight to let your skin breathe without make up. 

U is for Utilise!- Try and make it last, it’s not cheap, y’know!

V is for Vegetables– Okay, not just veg, but a healthy diet in general. 

W is for Water– As well as a healthy diet, drinking plenty of water is great for skin. I personally drink gallons in a day so have very good skin as a consequence. 

X is for Exfoliate– Not quite an X, but really? My fave exfoliater is the Soap and Glory Scrub of your Life, featured in my last post (Bath Time Pampering). 



Y is for You– Nothing is more important than you time. Time off from work and family and responsibilities to relax. 

Z is for Zen- Quiet and sleep and relaxation with your fave products is the most important beauty tip I can give you. 

Emily

Xoxo