Blogtember Day #19- Anxiety Update. 

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Bonjour!

So, you may or may not already know this about me but, I suffer from anxiety disorder and panic attacks. Being diagnosed with anxiety is quite a recent thing for me, as I only really realised it and started to have more severe attacks in May of this year. So this blog is basically me coming to terms with the changes and noticing the triggers that spark off my anxiety and irrational and low feelings/thoughts. 

I work in a secondary school as a Teaching Assistant and, although I love it most of the time, I’m having a really tough time lately. After having the summer holidays off, in which I had zero panick attacks and barely any anxiety, I have returned to work feeling the most anxiety I’ve ever felt. 

So on Saturday evening, I had the biggest and worst panic attack ever. I was crying and shaking and, in all honesty, haven’t been the same since. I’ve been really quiet and just unable to find joy in anything I do. I also managed to have a bit of a melt down at work on Monday, luckily not in front of anyone. My mum knows and is really helpful, but she’s now starting to really worry about me. Mum phoned the doctors yesterday to get me an appointment. She thinks I need something other than propranolol, as now I’m beginning to feel very down and depressed. (Does propranolol work for anyone else? It does nothing for me…)

I know ‘depressed’ is a throw-away term that probably most of us use. But depression is a serious mental condition and is, unfortunately, linked to anxiety. I will see what the doctor says but I really hope I’m not heading down that road. 

Anyway, Mr Anxiety is back and here to stay, it would seem. Which sucks because it’s my birthday on Saturday and he is not invited to the party 😦 😦 😦 

On the bright side, this low patch has made me realise what wonderful people I have around me, who genuinely care about how I’m feeling and love me. 

Really hope your week is going a lot better than mine!

Feel free to discuss anything you feel you need to in the comments….

Emily

Xoxo

8 thoughts on “Blogtember Day #19- Anxiety Update. 

  1. Thank you for opening up. 🙂 It isn’t easy talking about these things, but you’re helping a lot of people not feel alone. I think that’s awesome!

    The picture at the bottom, I follow the girl’s page on FB I think…she’s called Chi Bird or something like that for her pictures. I LOVE her art work because it’s so positive!

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  2. Woah thank you for sharing. I have experienced some panic attacks in the past. And I can relate to some extent. So I really appreciate how brave you are to share such personal things with us.

    Have you looked in “alternative medicine”? There you can find also many options to treat the anxiety. Which are strong but don’t harm the body like other meds.

    I truly support you. If there’s anything you want to share I’m here.
    Stay strong.

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    1. I think Propranolol is to slow heart rate when feeling panicky, what is your’s for? I am trying to keep my options open for medication lately as I find propranolol isn’t great for me :/ xx

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      1. Ah that makes sense. I never found that any medication helped with my anxiety – I tended to use herbal teas. Citalopram is an SSRI which means it increases the neurotransmitter in your brain that is associated with happiness. It’s used for depression mainly. xx

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      2. Oooh, that’s very interesting! I find herbal stuff better too! I once tried Rescue Remedy in an emergency, as I find its better than any drugs! Xx

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      3. Yeah Rescue Remedy is pretty good – I carry the tablets around with me for emergencies as well as gum because eating tricks your mind into thinking ur okay because why would u be eating if u were in danger?! xx

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